Thursday, March 1, 2012

Why Be Glum?

Why was I having such a hard day with staying focused and on track? I thought about it all morning and couldn't think of a reason. No excuses, right?! If I couldn't think of an answer, I knew who could. So, I did the best thing I could think of... I called my sister for some Twinspiration. She said, "Blog it... and remember that you're allowed to have days like this." She was right. I AM allowed to have an "off" day. 

Here is how it started........ and how it ended.......

It was Tuesday, February 26, 2012... I woke up at 6:00 and got ready for work. I was in a very mellow and weird mood. I didn't like it. Maybe coffee would do the trick. Nope. I didn't want a coffee. I left for work and decided to stop for coffee anyway. I went to Starbucks and ordered a triple espresso over ice with soy milk and cinnamon. My favorite. That still didn't make me feel better. Well, at least I ate a good breakfast and everyone is back from vacation so it will be a normal day at work, right? Wrong again, sister. A co-worker called out sick and I am 10 minutes late - Wow... am I feeling sorry for myself. So, the day passes......... 

..........and it was time for lunch. I went to the kitchenette in my office and took my lunch out of the fridge. Veggies and a protein patty... AGAIN. About 99% of the time I love eating my fruits and vegetables. However, that day, I just didn't want to eat my veggies. I placed my dish in the microwave and watched it as it went around.... and around... and around.... I figured, the more I watched, the better it would look. On a normal day that bowl of veggies and protein patty would look delicious and I would eat it and be satisfied. For some reason, the more it cooked, the less I wanted it. I went back to my desk and ate it. Very Slowly. 

I finished my lunch and at that point I thought to myself "seriously, Nikkie? snap out of it. you're pathetic." I talked to Patti on the phone and via email... She was oddly enough, having the same type of day. WEIRD. We figured it out, together. I was exhausted - mentally, physically and emotionally with my diet, my exercise and life. Well, that's pretty easy you think - everyone gets like that! Well, maybe they do. But that day, I felt like I was the only one going through it. When I talked to Patti I realized how selfish I was acting. I am not the only one struggling to reach my goal, or stay at my goal... or stressing at work... or fighting off everyday temptations that other people don't have to resist. It's my life. It's how I have to live it. It's the decision that I made, so why be so upset about it? Everything will pay off. It really will! 

Soon after my conversation with Patti, I got over whatever I was feeling. I texted a friend to go to Zumba with me. After all, exercise is the best medicine! I finished work and left to head to The Dance Factory to shake off the bad energy I had. On my way to Plymouth I saw the best license plate. All it said was Y B GLUM - get it? Why be glum? so simple but so powerful to me at that moment.

My day started out weird, but with a little twinspiration from an amazing heart and a simple saying from a license plate, it ended with so much more greatness than I could have expected. 

So next time you're having an "off" day... think of this, and I guarantee you will laugh a little or hopefully, a lot!

"I wish I were a glow worm, a glow worm is never glum. 'cause how can you be grumpy, when the sun shines out your bum?"


Love and health to all


  1. You too, have an amazing heart <3 Sometimes it is okay to feel down - but you're far from pathetic. It's not easy and doesn't seem fair sometimes with how much effort is required from us, but it definitely makes you stronger. You brought yourself to a positive place and ended the day the best way you could - by taking care of yourself. Thank you for showing this is possible! And I can always count on you for some more daily twinspiration! Love you xox

  2. Couldn't agree more with Patti! Selfish and pathetic are four letter words.....ok, I know I don't count so good but you get what I'm saying :-). Off days are those days that we need to feel love and compassion for ourselves and from someone special, like an identical twin. Sure would be nice if we all had an "other" like you two have with each other. Very precious. Off days are kinda like what a cranky baby is feeling. They need loving, compassionate care and understanding. Someone to love them so they can feel comfortable and out of distress again.
    Thanks for the window into your journey, Nikkie. And thanks for makin' me laugh at the end!